Loved ∞ ♔

Why am I always the one left behind?  Do you not care that I’m worried about you? Why would you make it last.. We talk on the phone before going to bed, and when we wake up for school. I got used to it. But now, that it’s gone. I’m yearning for it. I’m too paranoid. I don’t like this feel. The feeling I have with you is not right. We all know this is not right. 

When you and that person have so many memories together. And then, boom, they’re gone. They left. And you can’t do anything about it. Let’s face it, this was never what I wanted. What was I to you? I expected a lot from you, seriously. You cared for me. You tell me you love me. You sing me to sleep every night. You text me every day. Then, now… errr. Am I worthless? Is it that easy to hurt me? Is it that easy to leave me? 

We were once so happy and full of joy

What happened to forever, oh you said

But I guess I was another girl toy

Back then, oh not even a tear was shed

But, I guess things change and people do leave

I gave you the benefit of the doubt

And that girl, she’s just another love thief

Got easily distracted by that mouth

Guess I was never yours to begin with

And, I have no reason to hold you tight

Said words that was not easy to get rid

 To hold you back again, i’ll give my might

And for once, I want to be worth the fight

Just to hold you back in my arms so tight

It’s not like you’re perfect. It’s not like you know their past. Our ‘now’ is the outcome of our ‘past’. Every single word you say, every decision you make affects the future. We should be careful. Cause once we say something, it can never be forgotten, we can only forgive. But, is it that easy to forgive? I know, they say ‘forgive & forget’ or ‘The past is past’. But wth, it still happened. It affected us. Those words, those cruel words. Every word you said, i felt like I was being stabbed in the heart, with a knife. And, it still hurts. I just don’t show it. I wear a mask every time. Every single time. Yeah, i’m smiling, but you don’t know what’s behind my smile. And, at times, you just have to give up, and accept the fact that it’s not the same anymore. And people leave for a reason. And every end is the start of something new. 

How is it so easy?

Things got nasty

You’re like a missing piece

Stay, please

I dont want to leave

I still believe

I wanted us to last

How could you forget the past

I’ll try my best

To get you back

But, my best is not enough

I’m not that tough

To get the old you back

Everything’s such a blur

You’re still with her

I gave you everything

But to you, it’s just a fling

Useless conversations

Endless laughs

Night and morning calls

These made me fall

Fall for you so deep

Now i’m on my knees

Begging you, please